I totally forgot about my personal blog. Oh shit. Okay so let’s see. I met this cute girl on Reddit. I just Skyped with her.
Here’s an excerpt from our convo after we Skyped:
[10:51:19 PM] Trickster Josh: i didn’t hear you at the end there
[10:51:27 PM] Alee: i just said cheer up
[10:51:29 PM] Alee: D;
[10:51:34 PM] Trickster Josh: D:
[10:51:35 PM] Trickster Josh: sorry
[10:51:49 PM] Trickster Josh: I ended up being a lot more shy and self-conscious than I thought I was going to be.
[10:52:00 PM] Trickster Josh: I’m usually more cheerful and energetic and idk
[10:52:04 PM] Alee: it’s okay!
[10:52:07 PM] Trickster Josh: I guess I was scared it was gonna scare you off
[10:52:15 PM] Alee: nope
[10:52:17 PM] Alee: you’re stuck with me
[10:52:19 PM] Alee: unfortunately.
[10:52:22 PM] Alee: for you
[10:52:24 PM | Edited 10:52:27 PM] Trickster Josh: i’m stuck with you? really?
[10:52:27 PM] Alee: yes
[10:52:32 PM] Trickster Josh: is that a threat or a promise?
[10:52:38 PM] Alee: threat
[10:52:42 PM] Alee: promise
[10:52:43 PM] Alee: both
She’s kind of adorable.
I’m going to bed. Bye Tumblr! I’ll be updating this more often.
I’m super worried about the storm yet instead of preparing, I’m marathoning Game Grumps videos.
Anonymous asked: u should go to bed tho :) things will be ok in the end -kyle
Thank you, Kyle. I slept really great. :) But ugh having to wake up at like 6:30 sucks. I work at 8 and have like a 40 minute walk so I have to wake up suuuuuper early to walk -_-
Anonymous asked: im happy for u then i just saw what happened. -kyle
Thanks, Kyle! :D Yeah I’m pretty excited too. I haven’t been this legitimately happy and excited to be on Skype and junk with someone for a long time and it’s just really nice?? Ahh I’m freaking out I’ve been thinking about it all night and I need to SLEEp but I’m not yet but I have work tomorrow aaaah ;A;
Anonymous asked: i really do hope things get better for u
Thanks anon. :) They’ve been really up and down lately. But someone really made my night so I’m feeling pretty good right now :D Thank you for the concern, it really means a lot. <3
Okay so I know I tend to fall way too quickly for people but just let me be happy about it and vent because fuck you.
So earlier when Maricel poofed on me and I was feeling all down, I got this really sweet anon. And so after that message happened, she messaged me and we started talking and I got her on Skype. Turns out she is SO TOTALLY ADORABLE. But she lives in the UK. :( Which is cool and all but damn that time difference hurts haha. So we were talking and being all cute and it turns out she really likes me a lot and wow she is such a sweetheart and I was feeling so giddy and warm the entire time we were talking. And we’re gonna Skype all night tomorrow :D Idk I’m just really excited to have someone like that around even if it might not turn into anything major and even if she ends up not feeling that way for me for long. It’s just really nice y’know? I’m a flirty guy by nature and just having someone return that, and have it be someone that I’m attracted to physically, emotionally, and mentally?? that’s really great idk wow
My mood took a total 180. Life is so weird and unexpected. I won’t get my hopes up with this (‘specially with the distance) but hey a guy can dream right?
Maricel and I got into an argument. Why? Because I was worried about her since she’d been acting strangely. She was a lot more sarcastic and rude and just, it wasn’t like her. And I guess she was fed up with me worrying and caring about her?? so yay this is like the 5th friend I’ve lost in the past few weeks. Another one was AJ who deleted me on Skype because he has his own problems to deal with. Okay??? so why just delete me? What even did I do? And Ivette because well she had her own problems and I guess she thought I was a terrible friend? And my friend Nikki because we got into an argument about my depression?? of all things. And Ryan because of issues with his girlfriend being a total bitch to me and because I never responded to his messages because I was away from my phone.
I just can’t deal with this anymore.
Just slept like 10 hours. I think I was overexhausted???
It pisses me off to NO extent when people take me for granted. Seriously! If you want to be my friend then be my friend. Don’t expect me to be at your beck and call 24/7 and support you through your clinical emotional problems! You should go seek HELP from a PROFESSIONAL not repeat yourself a thousand times to someone you met online, then ignore their advice and help. You drag EVERYONE down around you. And then when I try to help you EVEN when we’re breaking off the friendship and arguing, you have the nerve to say “good riddance?”
I haven’t been this pissed in a while tbh and I do not feel sorry for you whatsoever.
brb ripping out all of my hair